For Me

I  was getting older and the world was not breaking for me
I had to grab a hold of something before I felt another tragedy
I knew it was gonna be hard work and a lot of dedication
I had finally discovered what fueled me was me was constant appreciation
Somebody once told me just  take it one day at a time
And everything is gonna be just fine

So here I go…

Gonna make it this time

I just keep telling myself I’m not gonna die

I gotta do instead of just try

It’s been a long windy road to this day

But now I know this is really the only way….. For Me

I was always talking way ahead of myself about  what was to come

Never in the now just in yesterday or tomorrow and I was spun

Excuses were my words and I was running  out of them in time

Had to just keep holding on..yeah holding on for what was to be mine

Somehow I just new that this was not was meant for me

The life of misery and tragedy but a life Truth in eternity

Fled

Thoughts of never ending sorrow today

Restless nights of sleep, leading my way

Mourning for the loss of someone dear

As a sad melody rings through my ear

Wishing I could have said, goodbye

Maybe one day again, I can say, hi

Tears have shed

My heart has bled

Remembering the things

That he had said

A smile so wide

With eyes to collide

Oh, how much I wished,

I had tried

Realizing what I saw so much in him

Came from me and came from within

A gift he carried to touch us all

Always the good, never the bad I saw

Wishing I could have said farewell

A matter of time, only to tell

Tears have shed

My heart has bled

Remembering the things

That he had said

A smile so wide

With eyes to collide

Oh, how much I wished,

I had tried

In memory of my beloved baby brother Joseph Allen Capps, we all miss you.

Fallen Again

Eloquently today I have befallen in today’s sunrise.

Resulting from a trickling past that has begotten current time

What tomorrow should hold for me is now I just focused on today.

As a grasshopper would never hop back into yesterday

Only time unfolds the moments on the path I have chose for now

Hoping that I will not fall astray from what is my true fate

Yes, I have fallen again and sadly I cherish only what I still have.

Like one shimmering ray of hope to guide me back on the angels wings.

Today there is hope for this broken soul that has once again befallen.

And he will spread his wings and inhale life once again.

Not being afraid of yesterday and tomorrow like he was before.

Just clinging on to what is now and the path that will be clearly beaten

One breath, one moment, on more rescue.

And it all lies within.

The Fallen Again.

Completely Torn
Tell me that you still love me
Today, tomorrow and the same as yesterday
I put my heart into what we started
And I feel like you are now drifting away
Just when I think everything is okay
Because you tell me that you still love me
And I hold on to those words so delicately
Because you have my heart in your hands, can’t you see?
So, if you decide that this is not working
And what I am to you, is nothing but hurting
If you go, please let my heart down gently
So that I won’t feel like I’m the one deserting
Now, I’ll wake up to another new day
Bowing my head and closing my eyes
If you saw me, would you not chose
Just to think that I was only pretending to pray?
So if you still love me, then just tell me
Look into my eyes like you did before
Because I am feeling broken
Inside I am crying for you
So please come back before my heart,
Is completely torn.
Then I am done.

Climb Out

Forgotten or maybe just erased
It was good that it was you I couldn’t face
I was giving up on myself, my heart was broken
Until I heard the words of Truth from the softly Spoken
I kissed the velvet lips on the face of death countless times
And now I stand as an easing miracle behind these pale blue eyes

In this battle kneeling in the rain I was self-pronounced dead
Running away only to find more serious trouble ahead
Where was the bottom to this hole I was in from sin I had to scream and shout
It was so damn easy by releasing the shovel and just climbing out

 Before I am Gone

Tattoos and poems

Sketches and jotted words

All of them

Deep from my heart

When will this world end?

When will eternal life start?

Im’ down with jesus

I think about him all the time

I pour these words out

And some how

These insane words

Sporatically rhyme

I’ve been suffocating in the dark

Can someone please switch the light on?

I’m constantly expressing it in the art

Can someone please tell me before I am gone?

Music and literature

They are all

Searching for the same

Everyone knows him

They just choose

To use a different name

I’m waiting for jesus

And I know

I’m running out of time

Like a theif in the night

That’s when he comes

So I am gonna be just fine

I’ve been wallowing in the mire

Can someone lend me  a helping hand?

I’m forever with this burning desire

Please take me to the promise land

1 foot on the gas

Hey you Mr. freeway

my name is Mr. passerby

I came to see you

about the makings of a nickel and a dime

so why don't you guide me

to a land that was built upon the skies

for you can see

that it's hard to be one of those standup kind of guys

Carolina back roads and

Virginia swamps also hard to master

1 foot on the gas

trying to save my ass

from another one of those self willed disasters

trying to keep it cool

because I ain't nobodies fool

and Times not going to move any faster

Hello there Mr. sunshine

it's you that greets me every day

I came to see if you knew

why the pale yellow moon won't come out and play

I know you know, Mr. Sun

that it does not have anything to do with the way I shoot my gun

because I'm tired of all your days

and all your bad ways, so why don't you show me why

Carolina back roads and

Virginia swamps also hard to master

1 foot on the gas

trying to save my ass

from another one of those self willed disasters

trying to keep it cool

because I ain't nobodies full

and  Time is not going to move any faster